Do you ever have those moments....

Do you ever have those moments when you get slapped in the face and realize you are completely clueless?
Do you ever have those moments when everything makes sense?
Do you ever have those moments where you think, "Really? This is the job I wanted for the summer?"
Do you ever have those moments when you think, "Wow. So this is what everyone was talking about?"
Do you ever have those moments when you think "it can't get much better than this?"
Do you ever have those moments when you wander around your kitchen not having any idea what to do with yourself so you just keep wandering?
Do you ever have those moments when you would give anything to be a child again? Where your biggest concern for the day is that someone put their feet in your space at circle time. (Yes! This makes 5 year olds cry.)
Do you ever have those moments when nothing else matters except enjoying the moment?
Do you ever have those moments when your heart longs to say things it doesn't know how to say because it's not been taught how to communicate the things that it is feeling?
Do you ever have those moments when all you want to do is hold on?
Do you ever have those moments when all you want to do is let go?
Do you ever have those moments when nothing makes sense?
Do you ever have those moments when you wish those moments would pass?
Do you ever have those moments of wishing you could be more?

Turns out life's full of them isn't it? Thank goodness they're only moments and always changing. Thankfully one thing remains the same... I'm so grateful for a loving father in heaven. Thank goodness for him, I don't ever have to go through these moments alone.

Oh... I have a blog.

Oh uh... Hi blog.

So... uh... how you been?

Okay I understand you not wanting to say much to me. I get that. I have neglected you quite a bit. But Blog I did just start this new job. I haven't worked full time in over 3 years! Granted being a full time grad student takes more than 40 hours. But remember how I'm working with kids?! Blog I just don't have time during the day like I used to at work.

I know, I know, what you're thinking. What about after work? Well... the thing of it is. I sort of like to see C.K. after work. And on the weekends. So... it's not like I'm going to be spending time with you when I could be hanging out with C.K. Because, let's be real he gives back a whole lot more than you ever have. He's pretty much slipped into the slot of the person I want to see most.

So sorry I've been neglecting you. It's nothing personal. It's just.... well I've got something pretty great going on right now and turns out I think about you less and C.K. a whole lot more.

So... yeah.